Pencil-Wolf

I am four things told a woman should not become: i. The Girl Who Takes Up Too Much Space ii. The Needy One iii. The Soulmate iv. The Girl With Strength The girl I am is a book when opened, glues its own pages together just so it isn't read by the wrong person I want to be the girl with iron skin, powerful, with mascara that never runs                               but that just makes me a bitch                               I guess I'm a bitch because I am iron, and I am strong but sometimes I can rust but with a glue bottle in one hand and pages in the other I can make sure I stay safe and closed because baby, I am a steamroller. I am

she grabbed me rough and    her nails burrowed themselves through my skin,    landscapes created,        mountains, valleys, folds      between her fingertips--red with the flush of life under my skin and            burning with anger, a                      passion, the smile of a smug bitch                    who doesn't know what is for her own good. "I hate myself."                                    One slap, two                            a hand across my face--a hand                            reaching for my wrist to pull me up I wish                            sometimes she would let me go. "let me go."